My Thoughts On...

Thursday, October 15th
9-10pm

Two things are currently coursing through my mind.

The first is a very sudden and very strong desire to make out with a really beautiful girl with lips as soft as mine feel right now.  There are, however, none currently in my apartment with me, and I wouldn't know where to begin to look for one within walking distance... in the dark and cold.  Which brings me to thing two.

The Venus Project.  And its activist arm, The Zeitgeist Movement.

If you're unfamiliar with the two things in thing two (XD) I highly recommend that you educate yourself on what they are.  The easiest way is through this movie. 

I tell you what.  (Yes, I do.)  Numbers are dwindling at work.  Dave was basically fired.  He delivers our cookies/muffins to other places to be sold.  They decided to put him on straight commission.  That's like ten dollars a week.  So he was forced to quit.  Dave was nice.  I'd make him free smoothies and he'd give me a dollar for them, and be like, "You're making nine dollars this hour!" 

And on Tuesday Judge Tim quit.  He's wanted to for a long time.  His wife just got her old job back, making more money, so he flew the coop.  Everybody misses him.  And they're not going to replace him.  Which is a serious sign that this place is going down soon.  If they can't afford to replace Allen.  Fuck. 

But it's cool.  Everyone's waiting for it to happen so we can have some time to recover from our workplace woes while collecting unemployment.  XD  Me and Bryan have such cheap rent we'd still be able to afford good groceries, and I could focus on my sewing and jewelry-making while deciding on a better place to work.  Bryan thinks they'll try to keep the store open through the holidays.  We'll see what happens.

I has the flu.  It kicked in halfway through work yesterday, but I managed to stick it out through the end of the day.  When Halle came in, she looked at me funny.  And then it went like this:

Halle:  How are you feeling?
Me:  Ehhh.  Not so good.
Halle:  Well, I have to tell you.  You look like shit.

I blame Cliff.  He got a flu shot.  So now he's spreading his flu.  I fucking hate vaccines.  Especially when they're being sold at fucking WalMart and Target and every drug store. 

They're just spreading the disease faster to make a profit.  Just strengthen your immune systems, people.  Anyway, that's what I get for eating so much sugar at work.  It weakens your immune system for five hours after eating it.  No wonder America's so sick.

C'est moi!   I went to a kickass bellydance performance.  There were like a million (or maybe closer to thirteen) dancers/troupes.  And one of them (Moria Chappell) is with The Bellydance Superstars, and was trained by Rachel Brice who's my favorite bellydancer ever. 

And there was this twelve year old girl who's been dancing for like seven years who was outstanding.  She was better than a lot of the troupes.  XD  The whole show was great.  My whole class went, and Erin (my first yoga teacher who's also my bellydance teacher's sister) and her husband, their mom, and Young Bryan.  We had a great time.  Even though there was no wine or olive trays like last year.  XD

Todaaaay I went to my first Gnostic Mass, which was wonderful.  It was a beautiful and powerful ritual and I met a lot of cool people.  I'll definitely be meeting with them a lot more, and studying/practicing magick more.  And doing more yoga.  And, of course, bellydance.  XD  And sewing.

Tuesday is the Equinox.  I'm making cider and hopefully doing some sort of outdoor ritual with Bryan at the beach.

I went to my first "real" party last night and had my first shot of imported Irish whiskey.  Followed by a shot of rum, then a few shots of gin (I HATE GIN UGH).  Whiskey is the best tasting and feeling of the three by far, and is the first alcohal I've tried that I actually enjoy. 

And along with all of that, I got smoked up for the first time since Mike's birthday.  The two combined were crazy cool.  Bryan and I left the party and went shopping for sexyclothes and played dressup/picture time (laptop has a built in webcam).  AND HE LET ME DO HIS MAKEUP.  XD!!!!  He said he'd go halves with me on a camera so we can get a nice one for our moneymakinz.  XD  We really need to get going on that.

I'm back on raw foods pretty hardcore and eating a lot of greens.  It does wonders for the skin.  And energy levels, holy shit.  Bryan and I had some pretty fucking amazing sex today.  It had been too long.  We were both in a grumpy, lazy slump eating sugary crap for a while.  No moar, plzkthx!  ^-^

Hanging out with my mom was a blast (<0.o>)  Yes.  A blast.  XD!!!  I looooove Twilight, but I don't love Edward because he looks too much like Bob the shminx and that's really fuckin' creepy.  We had DiGiorno, and I slept in my old bed.  First bed I've slept in since I moved out.

Friday we went for a drive, then went to Denny's for burgers (why I decided I needed a rawfood detoooox UGH  XD) and went on a really long walk in the woods (no wonder Jen had a blast  XD  WALKING) and I've convinced her to start walking with me every Friday now.  We've never gotten along this well before.  I'm so happy.

Cammy came in yesterday to see me at work!  And I was already off the clock, so we got to hug and chat and stuff!  I miss her.  We're gonna get so much food together.  Melissa too.  We're gonna go to Little Italy and get cannoli and cassata cake.

I start fall bellydance classes at the dance academy this Wednesday.  I'm so excited!

I have a few people wanting to buy kale chips and chocolate coconut balls from me, so Imma get to cookin'.  XD

Bryan watched the first NANA movie with me and he liked it.  ^-^  I BET I'M SO BEHIND ON THE MANGA!  EEEP!

Made me miss my kuzn hardcore.

I LOVE YOU, KUZN!  WE SO NEED A NANA PARTY!!!

I've decided to brew up some mead.  For those of you unfamiliar with what in the name of pants I'm going on about, please, do let me clarify.  Mead is an alcohalic beverage made from honey.  (I can see Niki's eyes widening already.  XD)  I also added apple slices and small amounts of cinnamon, ginger, allspice, nutmeg, cloves, and cardamom.  It will be ready in exactly two months - on October thirty-first.   Since this is my first go at it, I'm just doing a gallon.

Also, some time this coming month I'm going to make some cider, so that it will be mellowed nicely in time for my twenty-first birthday.  Though it'll probably just save a little for that night, because apparently I'm going barhopping.  XD  It should still taste nice after just a few months of aging, so it'll be nice to have for late fall and early winter.

I'm making an awesome silver chain for the pendant I made last night.

 

And my sister moved out and is in an apartment with two guys and a girl.

Bryan and I plan to visit in October or November.

I'm spending the night at my mom's Thursday and we're watching Twilight. 

Leo's such a good snugglecat.

^-^

So, yesterday after work I went over to Aunt Donna's for a visit, which was freaking awesome.  Devin and I went for a long walk, hung out down at the lake, practiced a few magickal things, talked forever, listened to music, and then had a garage party with Aunt Donna and taught her some bellydance.  I ended up finally crashing on the couch somewhere around 5am. 

I woke up around 1pm and got some breakfast.  Then my phone rang.  It was Bryan.  He got a call last night.  His grandfather had a heart attack.  So he rushed off to the hospital and was there until morning.  When he came home this morning he realized that in his rush to the hospital he left the door unlocked.  The place was trashed.  My new camera and Bryan's laptop were gone, and everything was thrown around.  They tore down a bunch of curtains, and my decorative fan off the wall, threw all the dresser drawers around the room and emptied the bathroom cupboard into the sink, plucked all of my skirts off the hangers, and squirted green paint on a part of the Psychedellic Jesus painting that didn't even mess it up at all.  They must have been strung out on something to do such bizarre things.  My sewing desk was completely untouched, aside from the little fan above it.

I bought a little acer laptop today, and I'm gonna just get a cheap camera with video to replace my nice one for now.  I can't afford to spend a ton while I'm saving for a car.  We're gonna ask the neighbors if they saw anything, and maybe check a few pawn shops in the next couple days just in case.  Bryan's grandfather's in a coma.  I'm trying to ignore the robbery a bit.  They're just material things that are replacable.  Perhaps whoever took them needed them more than me. 

Or they were just fucking crazy.

That's what my aunts call me now, after seeing what I wore to Chris's first gig last night.  I was damn cute, though.  XD

And it didn't bother me anyway, after Aunt Donna told me that at work, her cake said "Happy Birthday Hooker".

I love my family.

The show was fucking amazing.  I'm very proud of Chris's drumskillz.  People even started moshing.  Including Young Bryan.  XD  Only bad part about it was that Nick kept saying dumb shit between songs, like that he felt like he was going to puke and stuff.  But if they knock that off and gain a bit more confidence stage-presence-wise they'll go far fast. 

Also.  Fitz was on stage for the performance, and I got kickass pictures with the band.  I look like I belong in it.  *SINGS FOR THEM*  I CAN BE THEIR AMY LEE.  ONLY BLONDE (*SCARES AMY LEE*).  AND HOLDING A STUFFED MOOSE/REINDEER MASCOTT.

OMG I CAN BE NANA!  *finds a cooler band  XD!!!*  KUZN!  WIG-BORROWING TIME!

Btw.  SO my idea to put Fitz on stage.  I'm awesome.  *emoheart*  XD

 

Afterwards, Bryan had previous plans to visit a pallypal, so I rode to the afterparty with Aunt donna.  Me and Devin were larfing and I was still dancing like crazy.  Since all of my festivaling and bellydance classes, I'm no longer shy about dancing AT ALL.  So, basically I never stop.  But anyway, me and Devin got to talking about a lot of *bizarre whistley noise of paranormality*.  BUT.  I have so much to tell him about what I've learned in no seat belt land (which I'll of course leave the seatbeltlessness bit out of moooostly) and teach him a bit about how to protect himself better with magick.  He knows very little about defensive/basic protective skills and they'll really help him out.  So I'll be going over there Thursday after work so we can hang out down by his beach and talk privately for a bit, then have the typical Aunt Donna's bonfire later on, since I'm off on Fridays and can just crash there that night.  It'll be sweet.  Devin's usually cool one-on-one.

 

In other news (XD) we've got two new girls at work to replace Jessica and Melissa.  Their names are Jessie and Debbie.  Jessie is a sixteen-year-old secret spy (friend of the owners' family), and Debbie is just psychotic and obnoxious, and middle-aged.  XD  Poor Halle has to train them to death and be trapped with them in the evenings now.

They may be trying to get rid of Judge Tim (TERRIBLE!!!) because he's been having (work-stress induced) panic attacks and calling off like three days a week for the last month or so with crazy thyroid shit and what seems to be a touch of depression.  But he might actually be trying to get fired so he can collect unemployment and properly search for a better job without being all stressed out while doing it.  Which we're ALL hoping for at least a little bit.  XD 

Except for Little George. 

 

He's too proud of his work.

 

 

My bellydance class at the wellness center isn't continuing in the fall because I'm basically the only one who always showed up.  XD  BUT my teacher also teaches at a dance academy (SO FUCKING COOL!) where I'll be continuing, learning with students who've already been in bellydance for three years, and Nicole (my teacher) said I fit in perfectly with them and am doing a great job.  I went to the last summer class there on Tuesday night and it was much more fast-paced, but I still did great.  I like this speed better.  I get to learn more faster.  And since this is a real dance school, there's a recital at the end of the season with a real costume and everything.  I'm ecstatic!  I'm getting myself a full-length mirror so I can practice better at home.  It makes practice worlds better to be able to see yourself. 

I'll be good enough to perform or teach... or both.  I'm awesome!!!  And proud of myself.  ^-^

 

Also, Mike's birthday was on Wednesday, and after work (he got his new jarb he wanted so badly! Yay!) he came over and we gave him a proper celebration, with a homemade (XD) giant chocolate chip cookie (cake thing) and present and card and funtymez.  Even Leo came to the party.

 

We started painting Psychedellic Jesus.

 

Blueberries and raspberries.  Sprinkled with shredded coconut.  Drizzled with agave nectar.  Bathed in fresh, raw vanilla mint almond milk.

 

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I'm amazing.

Today was Cammy's last day at work.  Even though she was only there for the summer, I ended up closer to her than any of the other girls at work.  And they're all leaving and/or have already left.  Jessica's last day is Saturday, and Melissa's is September third.  We got a new girl on Tuesday to work the night shift named Aslynn.  Pretty name.  She's a daywalker and seems nice enough, but a bit... normal for my taste.  Maybe she'll break out of her shell in time.  Everyone was shocked when she was hired, because usually only cute young girls are hired anymore.  She's... young.  XD

I had my disposable camera from my last camping trip and took a bunch of pictures of me, Cammy, Jessica, Melissa, and Little George.  Speaking of which, he's going to have his own section in my vox from now on.  See, when he puts out samples, he makes lovely signs to accompany them, identifying he product and its price.  Then I bring them home and take pictures of them after we've all stood in a circle in the juice bar laughing hysterically at them.  Let me mention that Little George is 83 and... not all there.  He disappears for hours (usually in the baby food aisle) and always manages to resurface just when he's needed.  He tells war stories about the time that guy cut the jap's head off, and reminds us of important things about his life, such as the fact that he hasn't been with a woman in over twenty-five years.  We love him dearly.  Cammy took two of his signs away to school with her.  I'll throw one in here every so often for larfs.

 

 

Mike's going through some thingies.  He was supposed to have this big fight last Saturday, but ended up getting sick, and somehow being told he couldn't fight Saturday turned into him not being able to teach there anymore too.  Buuuut he's found a new gym, and is pretty much hired getting eleven bucks an hour for this insurance place where his brother works, so that should take quite a load off his mind.

I had the most beautiful experience of my life and now understand my  place in the universe.  Because of it, I now view life as a weird experience and appreciate bees on a much deeper level. 

I've really found my place amongst merchants on etsy.  I bought some beautiful hand dyed organic fabric and a nice pair of hand made black suede moccasin boots (which I've desperately needed for the last few years).

 

My plans with Chris might still be on tomorrow, but if not I'm taking a me day.  I've needed one for a while.

Three is company tooooooooo!

My camera has arriiiived!

Also.  On Saturday, Bryan and I went to a tantra workshop/celebration/raw food feeeast and became friends with some awesome people.  We have a new bestie named Shakthi (he's from India and is super cool) who Bryan actually ran into at a festival too.  XD  He was heading the workshop, along with Iris, who is more free to be herself than anyone I've ever met.  Halle (who I'm becoming friends with now, holy shit) described her quite well as being a spirit.  When she sang with the singing bowl... god.  I can't even describe how incredible it was.  Needless to say, I sang with mine the next day, and it was unbelievable.  Anyone who has a singing bowl and has never sung with it, it's something you should really experience.

 The workshop was incredible.  There were tons of exercises to open the chakras, raise energy and play with it, notice how the food affected different chakras, and just generally have everyone open up and become free to be themselves without fear of judgement.  By the end we were all hugging and feeding each other (raw vegan) cake.  ^-^  It was amazing.  It was what kindergarten should be.

I have more to tell, but I'm sleepy, so I'll tell more another time.  I still need to write about the drum circle at my last festival.  ^-^