7 posts tagged “music”

Still Tuesday (<---- No!)
11pm

I stayed home because my feet and back were so soooore that I could not bear to shuffle about a juice bar for eight hours in agony.  I'm gonna talk to D. Dawg himself about cutting my hours so that I don't have to keep calling off from back-owies and near mental breakdowns. 

With my free time I'll be able to do things like I did today:

• Make tea
• Buy an inexpensive camera on the internet.
• Type journals.
• Send emails.
• Return phone calls.
• Listen to soothing music.
• Make a t-shirt pattern.
• Practice yoga.
• Partake in a fourth of a bit of blissful mind-altering paper.
• Contemplate life, the universe, and everything.
• Contemplate the Girl Club Ganesha-Squid god.
  
• Make jewelry.
• Do laundry.
• Sleep in.
• Do my makeup.
  
• Fast.
• Tune my chakras.
• Go to the bank.
• Look at cute little squirrels on the way home from the bank.
• Ramble at Young Bryan about Einstein's theory of gravity while he's trying to read.
• LBRP
• Sit on the back porch and enjoy fall.

So, yesterday after work I went over to Aunt Donna's for a visit, which was freaking awesome.  Devin and I went for a long walk, hung out down at the lake, practiced a few magickal things, talked forever, listened to music, and then had a garage party with Aunt Donna and taught her some bellydance.  I ended up finally crashing on the couch somewhere around 5am. 

I woke up around 1pm and got some breakfast.  Then my phone rang.  It was Bryan.  He got a call last night.  His grandfather had a heart attack.  So he rushed off to the hospital and was there until morning.  When he came home this morning he realized that in his rush to the hospital he left the door unlocked.  The place was trashed.  My new camera and Bryan's laptop were gone, and everything was thrown around.  They tore down a bunch of curtains, and my decorative fan off the wall, threw all the dresser drawers around the room and emptied the bathroom cupboard into the sink, plucked all of my skirts off the hangers, and squirted green paint on a part of the Psychedellic Jesus painting that didn't even mess it up at all.  They must have been strung out on something to do such bizarre things.  My sewing desk was completely untouched, aside from the little fan above it.

I bought a little acer laptop today, and I'm gonna just get a cheap camera with video to replace my nice one for now.  I can't afford to spend a ton while I'm saving for a car.  We're gonna ask the neighbors if they saw anything, and maybe check a few pawn shops in the next couple days just in case.  Bryan's grandfather's in a coma.  I'm trying to ignore the robbery a bit.  They're just material things that are replacable.  Perhaps whoever took them needed them more than me. 

Or they were just fucking crazy.

Sunday

April 19th

5:45pm

As of late, it's been pretty effin' snazzy.

I decided to go with a Brother, sewing machine-wise, but I still haven't begun learning to use it yet.  I've been very busy.

I've spent a lot of time making good friends since Niki left.  I'll have to introduce her to all of them WHEN SHE VISITS  *AHEM*.  XD

Me and Alison (friend from work who recently quit) have begun a quest to find the best Irish pub's stew, and she's very excited to have a friend who likes the Disney channel.  XD  We're also filming a music video for our (soon to be chart topping) song "I'm on a Goat".

Young Bryan (also from work, but hasn't quit yet XD) is my newest best friend.  Hanging out with him is like being with my sister again.  I really missed that sort of wild freedom.  We romp through the woods, talk about what we think of... pretty much everything, and he's introducing me to the world of hippies.  XD  One of those hippies may in fact provide the very goat for me and Alison's video.  XD!!!!  Oh, and we're writing a story about foxgoose-goosefox.  Details on that will unravel as the tale does, I'm sure.

My great-grandmother (91) died last week, so I spent a week in West Virginia for the funeral.  All my gramma's kids were in the same room for the first time since my mom's wedding (1982).  It was really cool to have them all together like that.  I met a lot of family I'd never seen before.  And I realized just how big my family really is.  I'm one of forty-two great-grandchildren.

It was my first funeral, so I was really nervous and cried a LOT, and this 12 year old kid put suckers in the coffin.

I saw a road.  It was called Road Run Road.  I LOVED IT.

Cameron met a French Canadian.  From Russia.  He's offered him a hundred thousand dollar Jaguar and two thousand bucks a month to run this recording studio he's building in Montreal, watch his house there, something about importing alcohol in Florida, and maybe managing a hobby store.  Hopefully just not all at once.  XD  The place isn't quite built yet, and I think Cameron's getting his erm... audio degree or whatever you call it before this happens... but it's a pretty amazing opportunity.  I'm really excited for him.  ^-^

The band he's managing is sounding pretty damn good on their new record (I've been going to the studio while they recorded a bit) and they're in a battle of the bands at a local festival coming up.

I'm going on a camping trip this weekend that's going to be SUCH a blast.  There's like, a million concerts going on all night, tons of people will be there, and classes!  Young Bryan's teaching yoga, Mike (one of the six fired from work FOR NO REASON AUGH) is teaching jujitsu, so who knows what other cool stuff'll be there?  I can't wait!

Niki's online!  Yay!

The other night, Cameron and I stopped by Barnes & Noble to check out a terrible cd that the record store didn't have (for good reason)... and while we were there I picked up a couple things from their "Irish Display".

The Celtic Lullaby

Various Artists

The music is to help find some proper

Darby O'Gill and the Little People

lullabies for my future children.  XD

It has really old songs from a wide span of the erm... isles.  XD

It's very pretty.

Darby's a classic and is watched in my house every Saint Patrick's Day.  We have it on VHS, so I bought a DVD for both my mother and myself.

Her birthday's the day after.

9:30pm

The new health food shop is going to be right near my work.  It will be four times the size of the original store, and have a juice bar in it.  There's still no official opening date yet.  I could DIE of joy.

Right down the street from the original health food shop there's also a CPS shop, a fairy/nature(/CPS?) shop, and an Irish pub (which I got stew from with Cameron today.  IT WAS SO GOOD.).  My next day off I want to walk around that area and check out all the places.  And the other health food shop across the street from the one I go to that I still haven't been to yet.  There are apartments in that area too.  And it's all in like a half hour walking distance, in a nice neighborhood.  That's where I want to live as soon as I have my degree paid for and own a car.  If I moved there right after getting my degree, I'd be paying rent out the ass and wouldn't be able to afford a car.  So even though I'll be mostly walking, I still need to get a car first.

They have mint chocolate swirl ice cream (at the original health food shop XD) that's made from rice milk.  It's AMAZING.  I think I like it better than Bryers.  No milk after-taste.  Excellent texture and flavor.  Not so good once it's melted, but it melts very slowly.  The chocolate swirls are fudgey and minty.  Not sure if I like that so much.  The new store should have more flavors.  I think they have it at Giant Beagle too.  Maybe they have more flavors.  Unless they only have the rice milk, and not the ice cream.  Anyway, it's called Good Karma (Rice Divine).  Let's check it oooout!

I want to make a work people list too.  Yes.

Cindy (aka: Hitler/Christine2):  Self explanatory.

Anne:  HILARIOUS.  25.  Has a 5 year old daughter.  I thought she was like eighteen and was so shocked about the kid.  LOL   We take the (breaded) soooole train to Clam Town whenever one (or one hundred) opens up, and we mimic Hitler when she's off.  We salute each other when it's time for our lunch breaks.

Justin (aka: Daddy/Captain/Squirrelaroo):  Jealous because he was off the day me and Anne formed 67687963123 inside jokes.  Slacker.  Dave the Laugh.  Drinks and parties a lot.  Squirrelaroo is his species, because stores cheese for winter in his apron pouch.  (Me and Anne are GENIUSES.).  Went to L.A. to try to become a DJ right before I started working there, came back a week later.  Currently trying to figure out if he's capable of developing musical taste.  I'll determine that after he plays some music from the band he was raving about yesterday.  Calls me Meat Man. Smoker (ick, elch, eltche).  We talk about cartoons.  Cameron hates him with a passion.

Jenn:  Went to our "rival school" and does a lot of black head motions when she's got an attitude.  Round, with glasses, same age as me.  I steal her customers and she tries to crush my arms when I try to get meat out of the case.  XD  She tells me about how her old boyfriend cheated on her and how she thought she might have been pregnant a while back.  I sit there and nod, trying not to hurl at the idea of someone touching a person that physically terrifying.  She constantly tells me I'm weird.  I tell her I know.  Anne can't stand her.  Justin asked if I'd stab her with a poison dart in the break room if he gave me one.  I said I'd think about it.

Pam:  Tiny, cute grandma type.  From England, and therefore so much fun to hear talk.  All of our customers from the UK talk to her, and bring her newspapers from London, etc.  Really cool.

Ed:  Best person to close with 'cause he's so laid back.  Probably in like his sixties.  From New York.  Light-hearted.  Hates Cindy's bullshit.  Starts chats when it's not busy instead of making us clean the world in silence.

Mary:  Greatest demo person ever.  Me and Anne always hope she's going to give out samples.  Speaks kind of slowly.  Really nice.  "Come on over here and get a sample.  I have breaded soooole.  I have clams here ready for sampling.  One just opened up."   Good times, good times.  When I brought Cameron in to introduce him to everyone, she said we were so cute walking around the... stooore together.  ^-^

Maryanne:  Usually nice, but snapped at us for talking the other day (bizarre).  She's the one who sneakily threw away chicken because she was annoyed by Cindy being Cindy.  She shakes.  Like a chihuahua.

Myra:  Nice.  In her forties or fifties.  Good to close with.  She said she likes closing with me.  ^-^  Her and Justin joking around together is REALLY hilarious.  She laughs really hard at a lot of the "that's what she said" type of jokes.  Only they're usually worse.  XD  She'd make a much better manager than Cindy.

The Sushi Chef (whose name I still don't know):  Really nice.  Cute.  Thick Japanese accent.  Should let Niki live with her.  LOL

That's everyone in the deli (I hope I didn't forget anyone  LOL).  Unless you count a couple people from the seafood department who come over to help when we're short-handed.  Outside of the deli there's my friends from school, Mary who trained me (I'm her unofficial dietician XD), John from the kitchen, and Cathy and Corrine up front who I talk to the most in the breakroom.

I got my first five-day-week paycheck yesterday. 

$240

I deserve a juicer.

The very beginning of Monday, August 10th

Midnight

I know I should probably have some sort of excuse for why I haven't written in a while, but I don't.  Yes, my mom and I had a HUGE argument and she took the internet box away for a few days because of it, but I've had it back for three or four days and I just didn't feel like talking about my life.  There's too much to say, and not nearly enough words currently in my personal vocabulary.  I'll try to catch you up.  Short and sweet.  Ish.

My mom's a BITCH and I'm stuck with her until she throws me out.

I can't let her throw me out yet because I can't get student loans and have to save up for college by working.

Which means I have to live here.  Near a bus stop.

The government is an even bigger bitch than my mom.

Fuck them for knowing NOTHING about health, and not putting worthy schools on their list.

Now it'll take months for me to save up what I need to start classes.

Niki's graduation party was a LOT of fun.

She's got a job now.

I've got more ideas for places to look for work. 

Trying offices next.

I'm turning all my applications in on the same day so I hear back from them all at once (more or less).

Gramma might not move in with us.

If it weren't for the bunnies, the trees, and the hawks, I'd wish we'd never moved out.

There was a big, shiny black spider in my room last night.

I tried to catch it in an empty ice cream bucket to let it outside but it escaped and I lost it.

I shut my bedroom door and slept on the couch.

I still don't know where it is and I'm scared to sleep in my room tonight.

There are some spiders that cause your flesh to decay when they bite you.

And others that just kill you.

So I feel that I have a good reason to be terrified.

I'm out of water AGAIN and can't get to the store until Monday unless I get a ride.

Which I won't.

I miss Niki already and fear that with us both working, we'll never see each other.

I'm scared of losing more friends.

I only have two. 

Three if you count Aunt Donna.

But we still haven't talked much yet.

I've been drawing, singing, and dancing more.

I feel like I'm wasting my life.

Nothing I do seems to have a purpose.

And no purpose I work towards seems certain enough to be worth the effort.

And I'm terrified that I won't be able to get a good enough job with the degree I want.

And that with my first job, I'll end up having to spend that money on another degree that I don't even like.

I've spent the last nineteen years waiting for my life to start.

I can't bear to think that working my ass off for (roughly) the next two years will lead me right back to here.

I'm scared that Cameron's new extreme passion for music is going to leave me in the dust.

Even though he says he only wants to sing with me.

And I'm scared that he'll dive head first into a new major that won't get him a job.

And that because of that he'll be in his parents' house for another ten years.

There's no way in hell he could survive that long with them.

I feel so alone.

I'm also addicted to lonelygirl15 and the Dragon Wars app on myspace. 

How pathetic is that?

I haven't even played SyrupTales in like a month.

And I'm ONE level away from finally becoming a wizard.

And I have no life.

And I still can't spend any money.

My bank account is taunting me.

I just want some vegetables.

Every day.

And clean water that isn't full of poison.

And mascara.  Because I've been trying to convince myself to buy more for a YEAR.

And my skin looks horrible.

Because when I get really upset or nervous, my fingers attack every imperfect pore they can find.

I decided today that I'm not going to do that anymore. 

I won't touch my face (or neck) unless I'm washing it or putting on makeup.

I hate this place.

On the bright side... today I got an envelope from the bank and opened it.

And then I found ten dollars.

Hello, water fund.

Tuesday, March 11th

11:30pm

I've been so laxy with my journals lately (i.e. there have been none).  So, I've decided to drop out and become a SyrupTales addict.  Well.  Not technically, but that's certainly the way this last week has felt.  I did decide to take Niki's advice and drop the rest of this semester to clear my head, make some money, and get the hell out of this house.  Luckily I can do this without my mom finding out.  Because I'm just THAT good. 

SyrupTales!  I'm a level nineteen magician and I've only been playing a week and a half.  Cameron wanted me to join so we could get married in the game.  ^-^  He's already proposed.  I'll add a picture of the ring next time I play.  I haven't had much to write about other than how many green mushrooms I've killed (over 100 for sure) or how many times I boiled at Niki's (10 for sure).  I can't even write about my fun weekend because she already described it well enough for the both of us.  XD!!!  But I can say that we got snowed in (as far as driveways go) and I got to stay two nights, which was so much fun.  And WE MADE GRATUITOUS AMOUNTS OF FOOD (AND ALSO VIDEO). 

Then I "helped" Cameron with a speech he needed to film for a class.  Basically meaning that I tried REALLY hard to not fall asleep, as I'd gone to bed that morning at 7am.  And then I held the camera.  There were gratuitous amounts of cuddles, then some pizza and South Park.  And his sister (who is a doctor) is putting their parents on one of those diets where you order all your food from them, so they're giving me a big box full of stuff for baking and such.  Basically, more sprinkles THAN MY KITCHEN HAS ROOM FOOOOR.  Niki!  We should make cupcakes with cute little millions of different sprinkles!

Also, I saw this Korean music video yesterday that made me bawl my eyes out.

AND.  I got my FREE HELLO KITTY CHECKS!  And my debit card.  And I tried to buy things with it before I activated it.  HILAAAAAARIOUS.  Not.  The black chick at the checkout looked ready to kill me after like ten minutes of trying to figure out why it didn't work, and asking me if I REALLY had any money in my account.  I felt so dumb when Cameron told me I needed to call to activate it.  I thought I was just supposed to swipe it once.  Anyway, that meant no mint plant from Giant Beagle for me.  But that's okay.  Because I can make money now.

WHAT?!  HOW?!?!?!?

Well.  Let me tell you.  Later.  XD  Because now it's time for SyrupTales.  ENJOY THE SUSPENSE!

Okay, fine.  Here's a hint.