3 posts tagged “tired”
It's 10pm and I should probably go to sleep.
There's a chicken chalupa on the other side of the wall that's been trying to sweet-talk me for hours.
My mom won't heat the room I've been in all day, because she says she can't afford it.
Even though gramma just bought a heater that uses just ten cents worth of electricity per day when run all day.
On top of the fact that gramma is also now paying her hundreds in rent per month.
And she's been getting $25 per week from me.
I'm going to the dealership (hahaha!) with Cameron tomorrow to buy a sewing machine.
Then to his long lost (thanks to his mother) sister's house for a visit.
I really shouldn't eat that taco.
I shouldn't eat anything at all this close to bed.
It probably tastes like shit after sitting for so long anyways.
I haven't seen Niki in ages.
She never even tried to get a hold of me when she got back in town.
Actually, she never tries to get a hold of me. I always end up seeking her out.
I think my stomach wants to growl.
I ran out of healthy food. Basically.
I have two carrots and a lemon. And a chalupa. Fuck.
I'm not going to like weekdays at work without Debbie.
Fridays and Saturdays are the only time the other girls are there when I am.
I'll get so lonely.
They better hire me a friend.
I'm tired. I'm going to bed. Hopefully the taco won't catch me on my way there.
8:30pm
So, I've attempted to buy healthy food to give me energy and motivate me to get my ass into gear, but I can't afford to buy enough of it for that to really work. But, that's okay. I've found a really great store that I want to work at even more than the health food store (because it's bigger, fancier, and has WAY more organic and local stuff... and it's closer). And the best part is, I can apply online. XD So, at some point today, when I stop feeling so tired, I'm going to do that.
I can't believe how long I slept last night. I went to bed at 2am and woke up at 3:45pm. I never sleep more than twelve hours unless I'm sick. I wonder if all the raw organic fruits and veggies I've been having this week are doing a bit of a detox number on me. I really don't know what else would make me so tired.
I think I'm a bit clingy. I get sad if it gets to like 8:30pm and Cameron hasn't contacted me in any way. It makes me feel forgotten. Or if I don't see Niki for like a week, I get scared that she doesn't want to hang out with me. I try to let my friends initiate the plan-making every once in a while, just to make sure they actually want to be around me. Am I just paranoid? Maybe I wouldn't feel like this if I had more friends.
I just went outside to bring the trash can back to the garage and get the mail. The sky was the pinkest I've ever seen, and the most brilliant molten, glowing gold near the horizon. Is it sad that that phrase makes me think of moltres flying up into the sky in Pokemon Snap? Anyway, that gave me more energy than I've had all day, so I'm definitely doing my application now. Go me!
Monday, August 11th
1:12am
Time to turn that baby OVER!
XD
I've been sooooo ridiculously tired lately, and it's keeping me from getting things done. Like getting a job. And cleaning my room. And trimming my hair. And going to the beach. And OH MY GOD HE BOUGHT ME GODIVA!!! Sorry. I'm on the phone with Cameron, who is currently in Connecticut. I LOVE HIM!
Anyway, to get myself some well deserved (and well needed) energy for my many-a-task, I'm going to start buying (and eating!) some very healthy food! Tomorrow me and Niki are making our first green smoothies and doing a bit of banking. I'm pumped!
And for those of you who may be wondering, yes that spider was waiting for me last night. On the wall next to my bed, no less. I managed to catch it using a glass and a folder, and let it outside. I felt so brave afterwards.
Not during.
